It’s been a while since I got out my Tarot cards. I’m badly in need of a new deck. One of these days, I will wander out to a bookstore to see what I can find.

A friend told me recently we should never do readings for ourselves. I disagree with this. I often turn to the cards or healing runes when meditation doesn’t provide me with enough guidance. While I don’t necessarily connect to my deck (it’s really old), it does provide me some insight into difficult decisions and situations.

I thought I would share this reading with you. I’m typing this as I read the cards.

Today we’re doing a 5 card spread and I am using an older Witches Tarot deck.

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1st card: Princess of Wands

Meaning: inspiration, ideas, discovery, free-spirit, spirituality

Card position: present – current situation

You embrace the opportunity to start out on a new path. You may not have a plan in place, but you know deep down this is what you want to do. You are ready for the change. You may experience creative restlessness or a sudden burst of ideas and energy. Now would be a good time to make a list of goals and aspirations and come up with a plan of action to achieve those goals. This card may also signify that your spirit guides may be trying to get your attention. This might appear in the form of signs, or pattern numbers like 111, 11:11, 222, 444 and so on. Or maybe your favorite song plays on the radio when you get in your car. Or you think of someone right before they contact you. The world is going through a global awakening. The feeling might be so strong that you feel like your guides are even “tugging” on your arm and pulling towards the path you are meant to take.

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2nd card: The High Priest

Meaning: spiritual wisdom, religious beliefs, traditions

Card position: what you already know about the situation

The High Priest or Hierophant, is depicted as a wise and older man who is known as the teacher. He is a religious figure with two fingers pointing towards heaven and the earth. This card represents a set of spiritual values or beliefs that you may have been brought up with in your life by your parents or relatives. The High Priest encourages you to learn fundamental principles from a trusted guide or source.

If you are wanting to become more spiritual, or leading towards a spiritual journey, then this card is signaling that you may want to find a mentor or teacher to teach you the basics of whatever practice you are interested in. However, if you are already experienced in this field, then you may have a desire to teach others what you know.

I find this really interesting as this is what I feel my path is leading me to. I would love to be a spiritual coach or help others begin their spiritual journeys through what I have learned on mine.

If family traditions are important to you, you are being asked to practice in its most wholesome form. No adaptations. This is interesting too because I’ve been torn between Shamanism and Wicca. I think this means I need to stick to one practice.

You may feel a longing to be surrounded by others who are on the same spiritual path or awakening as you are. You want to learn from them. And experience things for yourself.

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3rd card – Ace of Wands

Meaning: inspiration, new opportunities, potential growth

Card position: divine wisdom – sage advice

This is interesting as this card is usually my “yes” card when I ask yes or no answers. I don’t think I’ve ever pulled this card in a reading before.

This card is giving you a gentle nudge to follow your heart and live your passion. If you are feeling that strong “tug” on your shoulder or arm, the Ace of Wands is giving you that permission to follow your dreams.

You can start off small and work your way up. If you’re working full time, maybe you can cut back to part-time hours and start a side business until your business has grown and can provide stable income. Or if you are in a financial position to do so, now may be the time to think about an exit strategy from your job. Just remember not to burn any bridges if you decide to leave.

This card, like all readings, provides guidance and a gentle nudge. It is NOT a guarantee that things will work out for you. Therefore, the divine wisdom with this reading is to take caution. Have a plan.

Trust in the divine to lead you on the right path.

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4th card – Three of Swords

Meaning: heartbreak, emotional pain, sorrow, grief, hurt

Card position: general advice to consider

If you are experiencing loss, or grief, you are not alone. This card signals that you have been deeply hurt and disappointed by someone you trusted. Whether it was a romantic partner or someone at work who purposely inflicted pain and suffering (bullying, harassment). This pain may not be new. It might be something you have struggled with for quite some time.

Pulling this card is a reminder that you are in need of emotional release. Now is a good time to reflect on what went wrong and allow yourself to heal. If you need a good cry, then cry. If you need a hug, then find someone to hug you.

Your emotions may seem overwhelming. As many others are experiencing a spiritual awakening this year, just realize that you are not alone with these feelings. Now is the time to accept the hurt and start letting go of it.

Pain, sorrow, grief – these are natural stages that we all experience in our lives. This card may be telling you that need more help. Whether it’s from a therapist, psychologist or a spiritual healer – that is up to you to decide.

Remember the saying, “this too shall pass”. Allow yourself to feel grief, but know that light will come your way as soon as you let it.

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5th card – Five of Cups

Meaning: regret, disappointment, self-forgiveness

Card position: outcome – next steps

I had to laugh when I pulled this card last. Earlier tonight, I asked my spirit guides to pick a yes and no card for me. And the Five of Cups is now my new yes card. So, I think that’s a really good sign for this reading.

This card represents that you may be feeling disappointed or resentment because a situation didn’t turn out the way you hoped. You may be wallowing in self-pity and focusing on all the things that went wrong, instead of focusing on how you can make things better or learn from this.

If you are stuck in the past and can’t let go, the Five of Cups is encouraging you to move on with your life. Let go of the situation or person that caused you pain (within reason of course).

Even if things are disappointing to you now – as the rest of the reading has showed – new opportunities are on the horizon. Continue to explore your spiritual path. Follow your dreams. Pursue your passions. Surround yourself with likeminded individuals who want similar things out of life. Get rid of the negativity.

Welcome light and positivity into your life.

And if you can’t let go of the hurt, then use this as a teaching or learning moment. Write about it. Share it with others. Think about how this has changed you – for the better. How can you handle this situation in a better way should it happen again.

You cannot undo the past – unless you’ve discovered time travel. But you can learn from it.

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Final thoughts

I’m taking this reading to heart. It was exactly what I needed. The spiritual guides are telling constantly to follow my passions. It’s true about holding onto disappointments. I’m still bitter over what happened with my job that I had worked so hard at for four years. I’m hurt over the way people turned on me in the end. People I called friends.

I find this whole reading funny, because just today I said to myself: if I don’t get approved for disability benefits, I’m so done with this chapter of my life. I’m ready to move on. And focus on what makes me happy.

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